Monday, August 20, 2007
past few days..
thursday 16 August
i realize i couldnt depend on the guys anymore. they speaked in their language, laughing away & refused to tell me what's the meaning to certain words that came across. cant relay on marcus also. he didnt entertain me either. (lala and nana SEE!! HE NEVER TAKKAIRE OF ME SIAL!!) feeling left out, i kept thinking of what to say and i realize there was nothing! so i kept quiet lo. & adam was rude unusually today. he somehow showed me attitude and said " GO LO! " which blew me off. normally he would keep me awake when im sleepy, keep me company when im bored. but that day he really made me cry hard. really upset and pissed off lahs! before today, i knew i am not gonna be okay. but i thought by controlling my tears, or by telling myself it'll be okay, i will be. it fired back. i actually felt worse today with no support from adam. i then left.rushed to the toilet immediately & let it ALL out. but still i don feel good. and i called nana and lala. they were having VB assignment. so called hq. he rushed down to fetch me home. i felt so much better when i got up the cab. thanks for being there!! for so long i didnt have that kinda so-lost-so-lonely feeling already. & so long i didnt get to cry in school when i used to do so when i had my gfs with me. hahs. does that mean im stronger than before? hahs and so i missed math and customer service classes. my effort of waking up early was being wasted! i really dono. sorry if you find it bored having to read this. i jus wana remember today well. i don wana make the same mistake again because people do care for me, i have gotta change for the better man. thanks guys. love you all.
friday 17 august
i missed lessons today. hahs. im so gonna be on the debar list. wish me luck. gonna get fu*k upside down by martin(class advisor) soon. im scared to talk to him, rather uncomfortable, and i really dislike him. he's so not friendly and fierce can. he asked me and my friends to shut up when we were talking during lecture last year. shut up as in keep quiet lah. he's rather particular about whether we're listening to him speak during lessons or doing some other stuff instead. i didnt see any good points in him yet. still trying hard lahs. he's just too strict. unlike mr chu. i miss him! so much. but no choice. he's more to networking stuff. didnt attend school so catch a movie with hq. Skinwalkers... actually going for firework, but no mood to go. so yeah.. aiya that show was crap, about wolfs. waste money sial. because no other movies to watch. hahs yep that's about it. oh yah, saw alaric outside the entrance of shaw century sq. hmmm he told me he working there. he gave the shocking expression again. hahs. really cute.
saturday 18 august
wanted to catch firework, but again didnt have the mood to go. watched Secret. second time yeah. hq actually understand the last part of show which i didnt. and finally i knew what's the ending about! hahs. unlike marcus. eh servant! you watched already not? jealous not?! LOLs wanted to catch the movie 881, full house. so yep. saw alaric again. this time at the ticketing counter. after movie hq keep waving his hands. hahs ma chiam at concert. =x hmmm, nothing much already.
♥hq.. nice back! hahs
sunday 19 august
woke up at 5 pm.. prepared and went for chalet. the time was passing really fast i can say. maybe because i woke up late. hahs it was jackie's birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACKIE!
they smashed the cake everyway on jackie and hq also kena. then he came back to the pit with cuts. he fell. hahs wth.. he was one of the few who pushed his head onto the cake and after that he did run. jackie chased. half way, he washed his hands! how stupid can he get? so he was caught by jackie, try to escape and they both fell. jackie on top of him! hahs i scolded hell outta him man. he's clumsy lah! VERY! climb stairs also will slip. funny sial. then after that washed up for him lo. and helped to clean up the mess. and home we went! he came to sit sit and went home. when's time to sleep, it's already 3 am plus. i couldnt sleep. so i type these few days entries and im going to prepare for school soon! suppose to wake up at 5'3o am. so yah. my dark circles getting bad to worse!! im so gonna look twice older and ugly when i grow old. hais. how?
♥he made a snow man using that.... *shrugs* i dono what's that called
it's damn cute lahs!
♥papayaQueen
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